…you knew how much i’m struggling with all the lies i’ve been fed throughout my life;

i’m filled with anger, negativity, despair, betrayal.

mostly betrayal.

betrayed by the people who are supposedly my role models.

it’s hard to even talk about it at times.

i don’t want to feel this way. i want to dispel all negativity right now; i’ve been surrounded by it for way too long…

i want to untie the dead knot.

but all these attachment theories, trauma theories…they aren’t making me feel better. so what if i can put a picture to these theories? they just make it more depressing.

i pray to God that the knot will slowly loosen its tension.

and i can find my inner peace.

one day, when my mind and heart can find a mutual resting place.

“Pourquoi je saigne,
Et pas toi”